the feeling is back... i hate being alone out here.. it is so strange, so weird.. like the feeling itself is trying to sallow me... sad had overtaken me... i really felt scared right now... not good... i don't know why.. but somehow i i felt sad... maybe alone out here is really terrifying? i guess so... sometime i felt sorrow in me... i think i really need some company here... even a friend will do... but now sitting my room, i am alone.. all alone... maybe some part of me really scare being alone... sometime i can deal with it, sometime not! it just feel like it conquer me with fear... like darkness surrounding you... can't breathe... suffocating... drowning? i really scare... help me...