day 1?

聊了天過後,心情也比較舒暢了一點. 也許事情並不是那麼難接受. 很多東西換個角度,其實真的沒什麼..

現在也似乎做好了心理準備, 接受失去你的結果了... 這次還真的好像真的喜歡上你了... 

真的很不像要放棄你, 真的覺得你好像就是我的另一半... 就是你的那種強烈的感覺.. 

可是, 事情好像不是那樣的... 哈哈... 跟你出去的那幾天,真得很開心... 

好像沒有甚麼事情會比那個更開心了. 真的很希望每天的日子都有你在我身旁.. 

有是想到你,鼻子還真的會有酸酸的感覺... 這是叫難過嗎? 好久了, 沒有這種感覺了... 

the she

for the past few days, i had travel to places. the origin thought of mine was to clear my mind, so that i could still stay focus on my stuff that i currently doing right now. but sometime thing change so fast that myself couldnt handle. for me to fall for someone so fast, maybe my first intention for her was maybe our relationship between each other can get closer. but now it just seem like it had gone beyond that. i really think that i had fell for her right now. cant even think of any other thing while whole of my mind is thinking of her. maybe as my friend told me that i kinda 'blossom heart big carrot'. but she really make me think that she also fell for me. the days we spent together were so happy, and i can keep staying beside, no matter where we been all the time we travel, even when we slept. the most happiest hours was sleeping beside her and staring at her while she was asleep. how can i ever let myself fell in this kind of situation, maybe the first thought of mine is the most accurate. she did not fell for me. is all me that think of the other way. is all me. everything change when i told her i like her. very very very much. that really change everything. her attitude toward me. everything. now we even dont see each other face to face. how come i fell for her so fast? within days...
my heart really do ache now. pain that flow through all of my body. can even felt the sour feeling. the whole time of day waiting for her to reply the message. dying to see her. even thought that maybe now god of love had seen me now. sending the angel of her to bless me. but everything just fade. every hope just fade when she say she didnt want to have any relationship due to her bad memory she had with her ex bf. maybe is just an excuse to reject me. should i keep on going with it? keep staying beside her? or even stay here and not moving out. she is really a girl that i really fond of. attitude, outlook, everything... she really make me crazy like hell...